13 February 2009

I'm on sabbatical... Or so I wish

I've clearly taken a hiatus.

I suppose my being discouraged from the [unsuccessful] search for a full-time job directly reflects my feeling unmotivated in everyday life, thus affecting my once-persistent need to blog. That was a very complex sentence, which I suppose also reflects the jumble into which my brain has spiraled.

It's been over a year (and over, I'm sure, hundreds of applications/sent résumés; I haven't kept track) since I graduated college. Still, no bites for a full-time job. That is sure to make a huge blow to my ego and confidence as a "designer." I've started applying for glorified secretarial, clerical and even telephone operator positions (not that those are necessarily bad, but I didn't go to a four-year university for graphic design to not pursue relevant endeavors!), all to no avail. (And yes, I look around the entire country).

I've considered grad school (for either creative writing or social work; hey, I need options here), but my current, massive amount of debt from undergrad hinders that decision greatly, and (gasp) learning web design. Somewhere along the lines and the growth of the industry (perhaps just the boom of the world wide web?), employers have become deluded into thinking that graphic designers need to know web and web designers need to be trained and qualified in graphic design. They are two different professions and each should not be expected to know and excel in the other. But hell, it looks as though at this point, I need to learn it if I ever want to get a job.